With my first child on their way, I see my primary work at this stage of my life to be to create a safe, nurturing, life-enhancing, deeply curious and constructive environment for my new family. I see this as involving inner growth in myself and my relationship with my husband, and outward growth in cultivating my work in the world as well as connection to community and place. As far as my work in the world goes, I feel myself at an inflection point between what my husband and I have been doing in running our own business together, to individuating and branching out in my own ventures. I think that less overlap of our lives is a healthy change to make. I want my work to orient more towards the inner lives of people, and tend to the ways that we are to one another and to ourselves. This has always been a strong orientation for me but one I have not been embodying particularly in my current work.

My role is as a learner, practitioner, guide, healer, organizer, leader, mother, teacher, creator, and friend.

I want to align my work with a path of learning I feel I want to walk on til the end of my days, and will never tire of. Currently I do not feel particularly aligned or inspired by the learning involved in the type of work I am in, and I want that better alignment to occur. I want my work to also include the inner work as much as the outer. I currently get too lost in the outer work in the field I am in and don't use the opportunities that exist to hone my inner world. I, my business, and my colleagues all suffer from this.

Focusing on the inner work and in shifting careers. In individuating from my business and branching out in a new direction.

Growing patience, and noticing what feeds my inner fire.

I've invested in the health of my body and mind, following my soul, mind, and values' directions and guidance, in my skills as a handler of livestock and an ecological steward of local ecologies, in my ability to observe and listen to the land, in my work ethic, many small business skills, spiritual practice guided by .

Martín Prechtel - World History from an Indigenous Perspective
Audre Lorde - The Erotic and Power
Esther Perel - The Erotic and Relationships
World History from non-dominant perspectives – David Graeber, David Wengrow, Martín Prechtel, Isabel Wilkerson, Michelle Alexander, M Kat Anderson, Charles Mann etc
Shunryu Suzuki, Dogen - Zen Buddhism
Ken Wilber - Integral Theory
Psychedelics Research & Ayahuasca-Based Religions of Brazil

All that is manifest is the unfolding of the unmanifest infinity of potential energy, creativity, and possibility that we call the Godhead. This infinity of possibility requires Time in order to manifest its particular forms of intelligence, growth, change, and endless possibilities. Death is a necessary part of the act of becoming. Existence strives and hungers toward wholeness, which is very different from Oneness. We are meant to be in elaborate, intricate, ornate relationships of praise and offering, which is the antidote to extraction. Extractive mentalities are uninitiated childish ways of being human. We are meant to be part of our ecosystems and cosmosystems. Beauty-makers, speakers, dancers, seers, and appreciators. Humans are witnesses, participants, eloquent creators. We are a powerful part of the cosmos, and that power can be used in service of life or at odds with it. Unfortunately, ways that dominate and seek power are at odds with life-giving and life-enhancing ways of being human, and so through violence, extraction and domination those ways spread and gain more ground than the peace-seeking, beauty-making, life-giving ways of so many people around the world.