|Your Name||Ciara Moynihan|
|Cohort Assignment||Cohort A (Europe + MENA)|
|1. What do you see as your primary work at this stage of your life?|
My primary work at this stage in my life is in listening. The work of my early 20´s was not listening to myself, getting hurt in the process, making mistakes, and sabotaging myself over and over. The work of my mid 20´s (as I have seen so far) is listening to my intuition and the subtle messages that arrive each day telling me where to go, who to be and spend time with, what to do and how to do it in best service of earth´s ecosystems.
The work is in listening to everyone around me and discerning which narrative they are telling themselves, not taking things personally or seriously and above all not judging anyone for their choices. In listening to others my work is to ask brave questions if they are willing to go to deeper levels of understanding of their own behaviours, beliefs and patterns.
My work is in listening to the environment, connecting to nature and learning her stories so that I can translate them to those who may not have time to be observant, still or surrender. I see that through listening I am strengthening and living the belief that a more beautiful world is possible. By learning to listen, my ego is removed (as much as it can be) from the situation, making it easier to make love-based decisions and not impulsive ones based on fear or with motivations of control.
|2. What role do you see as yours to play?|
I see my role as a changemaker and bridge. I am a connector of ideas, places, and people, through the trust I build in my relationships, I often end up having a strong influence on outcomes and decisions without meaning to. Since becoming aware of this ability and thereby responsibility, I am keenly aware of how much or what advice I give. I can be a powerful force in movements of change because people trust what I say. In a meditation two years ago my purpose came to me as ¨empowering people and creating change¨, and I think that is a brilliant summation of my role.
I am a seer and can articulate what I see in ways that sometimes shocks, refreshes, and occasionally hurts others. The level of insight that I reach means my role is to share and give the correct dose of what I see to other people or project groups when the timing is right. I am often guided by my intuition on what to say, because it is useful and will be heard or taken on board by the other person, and what I shouldn´t say as the person/group need to learn for themselves and do not have capacity to listen or integrate the medicine I can give. When I am able to provide people with a mirror of their life, or the current process/system they are in, it initiates the journey for them on imagining things differently, or considering how they would like things to be.
|3. What goals or aims do you have in regard to the above?|
In regard to the above some goals I have for this year are:
|4. Where do you feel your next arenas for personal growth are?|
I find this question particularly hard to answer because I don´t think we are meant to be on a mission to grow, or at least maybe not in the way our consumerist and trauma insensitive society prescribes it to us.
So I could answer this question with concrete suggestions like a consequential exercise plan or commitment to do yoga every day and get out on a hike at least once every 2 weeks, but I haven´t because that feels more like a healthy habit or choice, and growth to me has come from dealing with my own trauma, my family´s, decolonising my mind, observing nature and plant medicines.
I have made my life a recipe for growth and I feel that I was called to do that. I have done this by going after big experiences and to extremes at a young age, such as moving alone to New Zealand when I was 18, and once I was finally settled I moved to Germany. Whatever our culture and society is processing on a meta scale seems to be stored and released in my body, it sometimes feels like I am a magnifying glass for transmuting pain.
If there is an area I will grow in this year, it will be sovereignty. That is my word for 2023 and it involves reclaiming my creative potential, sexuality and personal freedom.
|5. And for professional growth?|
My next arenas for professional growth are building a network of collaborators and clients, learning how to price what I do or make a living from it. I´d like to learn more about barter and new economies or business models. I have a lot of room to grow in terms of using frameworks and models which I can then use in projects and groups in my work. I also would like to think regeneratively and that is why I am doing this course.
|6. What have you invested in to get you where you are?|
I truly believe that the community of friends and family behind me, including those no longer on this earth, are the ones who have helped me get to where I am. The investment I have made of time, love and energy in being there for others has definitely been a huge part of the opportunities and support I have been given. I am an empathic person who loves to offer people my whole presence and I think this is a priceless investment of love in the world, which is reflected back to me in infinite ways.
I have invested a lot in learning energy healing, starting with reiki back in 2019 and now I mostly do intuitive healing on myself and friends. This has helped me to work at my best, keep my health and happiness high, and attracted some true miracles in my life. The shamanic path is something that I contemplate and think about a lot, and I think it is one I will take in a few more years.
I have invested a lot of time in reflecting and going to therapy to understand how I think, break systemic and family patterns, and decide which direction I want to go in now. The investment in living in different cultures and examining their worldviews has also not always been easy, but I think has given me a great ability to see behind what people say/do and learn their motivations.
|7. What fields of learning and which thinkers have been important in your life?|
I have been shaped in endless ways by people, organisations, institutions and landscapes I have spent time with. The things that stuck out to me, when thinking about this question were:
|8. Can you frame your philosophy or cosmology of life? What role(s) do humans play in it?|
Humans protect, create and honour life. Our role is to look after the guardians of the forest, oceans, rivers, mountains, deserts, and all natural landscapes. We are here to allow the divine to emerge through us: in our food, the experiences we share, the art and music we create, homes we build… We are here to vision, journey and dream, to be in communication with the universe and consciously co-create our lives in communion with the natural world.
I think my philosophy on life comes through in this collection of my poems:
Flow is the synchronicity of energy in the cosmos between all living things
I met myself in the forest,
Crying at the river
I saw my life as the river.
There is no difference in worth or value between who you are and who you could be. There is no extra happiness to be found. We don´t change who we are, but we learn to behave in ways that reflect the world we want to live in. We all contain worlds inside of us and if we want to live in a healthy external world, we must first tend to our inner worlds. We each possess all the powerful emotions, talents, thoughts and energies. There are no limits to human potential, at least I don’t believe in them.
Like trees we are always being pulled in two directions.
I think it is silly of me to even think in the first place. Language can’t comprehend the subtle loss and existential stress we endure and expose ourselves under long periods of separateness from earth, creation, centre, our core. The things that make us more ourselves than anything else, the blood that has been spilt and songs sung, wars won, hair braided and embroidered in dusky clouds of her. All of her. Feast. Pray. Surrender. Breathe. The elemental miracle of experience. That’s all you get. That’s it. And if you are here for more or longing or desiring or expecting and thinking you deserve different then get to the end of your life and tell me who you would have been differently.
My body melted away and the fabric of the universe was me
I am not what has happened to me.
|Date Created||January 22, 2023|