I have made a promise a very long time ago to be a voice for horses and as they took me back to the land, I wish to deepen my "understanding" of place, an understanding that is based in the sensory somatic experience supported by centering, breath and creative expression. I took me many years to realize how compromised the experiential path to learning has become in the western and technological world we live in and it is my sincere wish to validate this intuitive, creative and personal path to being with oneself as nature not only as legitimate but as absolutely necessary to the strictly objective. At the core of it all is the cultivation of embodied presence as place, as the ever changing territory from which to initiate peace and more harmonious relationships.

 “ Is there a more mysterious idea for the artist than to imagine the way nature is reflected in an animal’s eye. How does a horse see the world? Or an eagle? Or a deer or a dog? What a miserable convention that leads us to place animals in a landscape that partains to our eyes rather than plunging ourselves into the animal’s soul in an attempt to understand his vision of things?” Franz Marc

I see myself as an ambassador to dialogues with the natural world that grow, heal and enliven the the intimate connection to the life force that lives inside us as well as envelops us. I see myself as a dot connector.

I wish to gain awareness and knowledge of current regenerative practices that I see applying in tandem with the Life-Art process, connecting personal inquiry with concrete environmental processes. It is my hope that this alliance can ignite a deeper sense of purpose, determination, perseverance and shine the mirror on the weavings of the inner human reality and the environmental reality.
Another goal is to strengthen my voice.

I am very much looking forward to the collective creative process, allowing it to nurture and open new path for my own creativity. I am also curious as to what my experience can contribute to others. Finally I need to feel myself in a new intellectual environment beyond the field of trauma and addiction in which I have been evolving for quite some time now.

Coming into alignment with my personal beliefs and authentic self.
It seems to me there is a fair amount of understanding concerning trauma but not so much about the collaborative functioning of empowerment.
I am curious about the dynamic, the redefining of leadership, how to support what is not yet visible or perhaps thinkable; the group experience appears as a microcosme of the larger movements.
At this point I am contemplating a shift from working with individuals to training others, mainly young artists, to become facilitators and "cultural engineers".
Empowering younger generations gives meaning to this new step I am taking.

My whole life journey has been a self directed adventure outside of main stream culture. I have invested a great deal of energy in unlearning by investing in a regular personal practice ro cultivate awareness, presence, centering, emotional and physical healing.

I have been greatly influenced by Jeffrey Yuen a Taoist monk I was blessed to meet some 25 years ago. For all those years he was a pillar in my life, helping me establish and believe in a reciprocal relationship with the natural world, a world view that profoundly challenged not just the idea but also the somatic reality of everything I was thought in the western world. I was also very blessed with a long term relationship with Angaangaq a traditional Inuit Elder, Healer and Storyteller. These 2 teachers were instrumental in my journey with horses as was Klaus Ferdinand Hempfling through his teachings and writings.

From the art world I have been very fascinated by Min Tanaka (Body Weather Farm) and Gurdjieff and pulled in by their teachings as the experiential weavings of healing, creativity, life and community.
From all these teachers my personal movement is very much grounded in a path of personal healing as the putting forth of an authentic free self that in itself is profoundly attuned with the larger non-human world. In many ways I see this as the foundation to healthy peace oriented relationships and communities.

Lastly I have recently come across the work of Gilles Clément, a philosopher, artist, gardener and landscape architect and his moving gardens. His deep listening to the natural world and the human inner workings are very inspiring.

One of my Elders says that the longest distance to conquer is not from here to there but from the mind to the heart. It is some 20 years that I have heard him say this and only now I am getting a glimpse at what he meant. He has dedicated his life to a mission given to him by his Elders, to melt he ice in the heart of man and only then will we as humans be able to soar.
What may happen to a culture when the Heart becomes the center from which he acts?
Is this perhaps where also emerges the native principles of honoring the Earth, the authentic gifts each individual brings, the attitude that the Land is no ones possession, that one should give more than they take?
What could my experience be from that center, nestled in a larger whole that embraces theses principles?
My personal cosmology keeps evolving as it is shaped and reshaped again and again by my life experiences, the relationships I forge as well as those I let go of.
Currently I am exploring Gurdjieff's work as well as Islamic geometric designs. These fascinate me not only because of their amazing beauty and seamlessly interlocking patterns but also the effect they are having on my body-mind connection.
Am I experiencing through them as I draw , their underlying cosmology of an interwoven world?
Are they opening new perceptions and somatic possibilities?
What would I experience, what does one experience living in such architectural configurations?
And then I think of the hidden messages in water, everything is vibrations, our thoughts, our words, our emotions our movements....
Nested systems,
We humans are here, it is time we realize the profound impact we have on all natural systems, from the on that live inside us to the one that envelops us.
In my work with horses it became clear to me that how I showed up, what mental-emotional composure I brought to the interaction has a profound effect on what might or might not unfold. No need to be perfect as the essence of it all is congruency, the willingness to pause and the resilience to change directions. In this journey of mutual empowerment with horses often I wondered, do they need me or are they juts content eating grass.... what is a horse? a blade of grass?
Yet, my horse keeps meeting me at the gate.
And yet again, when I sink or withdraw, I notice the spark in my horse's eye fade.
We journey together, seeing deeper into each other and perhaps it is in this recognition that beauty arises.

"Some day, after we have mastered the winds, the waves, the tides and gravity, we shall harness for God the energies of love." Teilhard de Ghardin