In my personal, creative projects - I am in the process of reimagining an upland farm in Wales.
In my philanthropy projects - I would like to help transform the food system and the support system for people with dementia. I'm also reimagining a park in Toronto as a community conservancy.
In my work - I am involved in evolving a more sustainable luxury residential development in Florida, and regenerating a neighbourhood in Oxford St, London.

In my creative work - the farm - it is everything - vision, budgets, project management, legal, working with the design team. I wish it could be more creative, and more aligned with my sustainability principles.
In my philanthropy - it's about building a vision through research, finding and collaborating with people that share that vision and taking a multi-stakeholder approach to evolve it into a strategic plan that is deliverable - and helping to fund them to bring it to life.
In my work - it's more as a board director, so not so hands on - more as an influencer or guide - but ultimately it's the same - but with a commercial measure to consider.

Have fun with smart people.
Trust more.
Stress less.
Find freedom in collaboration.
Be a better leader.

I find I am able to quickly come to a big idea or vision, I enjoy the research and developing the strategic plan, but I struggle with the delivery of the project. The closer I am to the project, the harder I find it is to motivate people to deliver. Am I choosing to work with the right people? Or do I lack the skills to deeply embed the values and principles needed to carry the project through? I'm hoping I can learn techniques or approaches as a leader that allows me to nurture projects and people to move forward freely within a governance framework that manages the risks sensibly without disempowering the team. Or is it something else?

I am a person with passion, beliefs, energy and capital. I just want to make myself useful.

I've been incredibly lucky. Many people invested in me. I worked for 20 years in the family business with amazing mentors, collaborators and the freedom to do creative, fun and transformative projects. As well as drive the sustainability agenda in our business.
I've met extraordinary people who have inspired me and helped me learn about sustainability. I've created a podcast which is a wonderful way to learn from people I admire. I've read everything I can about landscape recovery from regenerative farming to rewilding.
The last 3 years I've been building the foundations for the next 10 years - a small team of people who can run my office - finance, admin, project management. And an ecosystem of people I admire in the food, farming, and dementia space. As well as talented creative and strategic people outside my team with whom I can collaborate to deliver projects. Also, I bought a farm.

John Elkington, Paul Polman - for purpose led business, a multi-stakeholder approach and possibility for change.
Robin Kimmerer - for the concept of reciprocity.
Carwyn Graves - for the connection between land and culture
Ellen Macarthur - for the circular economy
Kate Raworth - for the donut
Christiana Figueras - for positivity and outrage in equal measure - and the importance of meditation
Mass Architecture and Christian Benimana - for the clarity of the question - how can a building be beautiful if it has harmed the people that built it or destroyed the ecosystems in which it is constructed?

No I can't. Not yet. Maybe when I'm an old woman.
But it's something about seeking purpose as a lifelong task.
And about inhabiting a rich and diverse ecosystem of people and nature and ideas.
Compassion for nature, people and self.
I have more questions than I do answers.
I tussle with the notion of value every single day.